trying something new?

30 December 2007

nothing

somehow my post of mega proportions and all that got placed below my last post because I was weird and saved it as a draft. anyway, if you have a slight, strong, weird, no inclination, or that kind of the yellow ducks to go read it, be my guest.

fare ye well.

01 December 2007

Musings of the Pixie Haired

As I sit here, at 10:01 PM, at the computer, eyeing my half translated Greek verse, uploading Christmas music into my iTunes, listening to a sermon by Pastor York, thinking of the post I have been preparing for ages (oh, it is of mega proportions, I warn you!) that is still in Word--unfinished, and swooping over and over again my very short bangs off my eyebrows: I think of how I haven't posted for a bit...

Here I am. Consumed by homework, coldness, a very earnest desire to go brush my teeth, and God's beautiful grace.

“Therefore I, the prisoner of the Lord, implore you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing tolerance for one another in love, being diligent to preserve the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.” Ephesians 4:1-3

23 November 2007

"Let other pens dwell on guilt and misery..."

or perhaps I shall continue on and let someone else fill that description. Although, I guess in complete solid honesty, I shall not be dwelling on misery and just a wee bit on guilt. :)



"MEMPHIS"



I'm sorry I've been so over-emotional, annoying, dramatic, sarcastic, mopey, and all other unpleasant things I've been exerting whenever this city of Tennessee has entered someones mouth or my head! It's been horrendous, I know. I knew it while I was doing it, yet under too much self-pity to want to stop it. Anyway, enough of these pitiful, non-happy, self-centered Leah-words. Moving on to the good stuff...



I've been heartily ashamed of my lack of a grateful heart in this whole "Dad's New Job" issue. I mean, my family and our friends have been praying for a job offer to come dad's way for years and now that God has brought such a good one (and it didn't end up being Ireland! though, living there would have been interesting...) for my dad to us, I've been nothing but ungrateful and most selfish. The other day while I was taking a walk, enjoying the lovely fall weather, my thoughts turned to the Thanksgiving Channel. How thankful I was for everything ad I began to pray as I walked thanking God for my many, many blessings...except Dad's job. Then I became so ashamed. I hadn't once thanked God for this wonderful blessing He had bestowed on my family! Why wasn't I satisfied with this plan God had made for us? When I am happy with what's been given, is that the only time I am going to be thankful? God's Plans Are Perfect. Perfect. That describes them...perfectly. If I'm unhappy with sheer Perfection, what will I be satisfied with? It's so annoying. After my selfish-ungratefulness was revealed, I've been trying to be cheerful about this. But it feels so fake and I'm tired of complaining about it. The Good News is...


  • There is a time for everything.

"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven--A time to give birth and a time to die; A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted...A time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance." Ecclesiastes. 3:1,2,4

  • Rejoice in the Lord always.

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:4-7

*********the rest I’m not typing out the entire verse and the like because my post with be even bigger then mega and huge and just plain big proportions and blogger will cut my post off, delete it, or I may just cry with frustration at annoying Internet connection while I wait for 23 days for it to load completely. (I hope that sentence was complete and understandable…..hmmm, if not, you didn't miss anything. *********

  • Proverbs 27:19-what’s my heart reflecting in this?
  • Proverbs24:32-what have I learned from this?
  • Proverbs 24:14-my hope is not cut off just because I’m leaving Indiana…I have a future planned out by the Creator of the Universe! My Lord and my God!
  • Proverbs 21:11-if I am wise, I will receive instruction
  • Proverbs 19:21-plans have been made for me, how can I be dissatisfied?
  • Proverbs 17:22-I’m not being cheerful about this
  • Proverbs 16:33-EVERY DECISION IS FROM THE LORD!
  • Proverbs 16:3,9 The Lord directs my steps. (v.4: everything has a purpose)
  • Proverbs 14:26-27,32- I’ve been thinking of Indiana as my refuge…my citizenship isn’t really here in the US or even of this world. My home is in heaven no matter where my body is dwelling at the moment. Memphis or otherwise.
  • Proverbs 12:25-being anxious doesn’t help anything.
  • Proverbs 11:24-I’m withholding possible joy and thankfulness I could have out of this….making me want it more.
  • Proverbs3:21-26-my foot will not stumble
  • Proverbs 3:1-8-acknowledge God and he will direct me bringing refreshment to my bones and body.
  • Psalm 147-thankfulness
  • Psalm146:3-am I relying too much on “mortal man” my friends, and not enough on God?
  • Psalm 142-my prayer (141:8)
  • Psalm 139:1-7,17-18,23-24
  • Psalm 130:5-6-waiting on God
  • Psalm 125:1-2-those who trust in God, cannot be moved
  • Psalm 119:143-when I’m sad, I can yet find joy in the Lord’s commandments. (161)
  • Psalm 116-THANKSGVING
  • Psalm 102-my prayer
  • Psalm 62:1-2, 5-8
  • Psalm 61:1-4
  • Psalm 42:5,11
  • Psalm 25:1-5-I trust God with me. V21 I wait for You.
  • Psalm 9:1-2 I WILL praise God
  • Job 42:1-3-things too wonderful for me…
  • Jeremiah 29:11-OF course ! :-P
  • 1 Peter 5:6-7, 10-11-trials are good
  • 1 Peter 1:3-9-rejoicing ever
  • James 1:2-4-joy in testing
  • Hebrews 11-examples of men who listened to God’s calling
  • Romans 8-our calling…working all out for good
  • Romans 5:3-rejoicing in trials
  • Romans 2:13-not just a hearer, but a doer

    No, this isn’t near anything close to all of it. But this is a bit of what is comforting me at the moment and what I could get together in a blog post. ;-) So, I hope all my notes and references are correct. I hope all is understandable. I hope all isn't too messy. For all the time I've had this it isn't very well organized. But I’m too far gone to double check anything right now. Just shoot me a….a…..um, COMMENT (that’s the word I wanted!) or an email or something if it doesn’t make sense or something or anything or nothing.

::sigh:: I'm confusing.


05 November 2007

Chuan Yun Li plays SUPER MARIO!!!!

oh yeah...

20 October 2007

"You are going to have some new clothes"...

...said my fortune cookie

"..." said I.

08 October 2007

Julie-O by Mark Summer

beef jerky isn't sufficient

(but rather grand! :-o) )

Currently:
  • listening to the soundtrack "Finding Neverland" (man, I like this music...so, charming...)
  • trying to decide whether to bring out the greek Bible to begin my assignment due tomorrow morning or to un-choppify my english paragraph...
  • slight bit hungry. in that contentedly slight bit hungry way.
  • completely engulfed in God's most AMAZING grace. it is sufficient. it's all I need to make it today. the mt. dew, beef jerky, skittles, really good book, sunshine that's calling my name, great music...it's all perfectly grand, but His Grace is GRANDLY PERFECT (I've thought about it, there is a difference ;-o) ).

My mom has really been promoting the idea of God's Grace is completely sufficient to me these last few weeks while I've been in quite a tizzy over it all and my usually able to handle stress and get it all done hasn't been handling it (hmm, wonder why...). Then, the last day or two, I began thinking about a few months ago when my brain had rather overcome the idea that I could let it all go and give to God. All would be well. All is well. I had lost that trust. For a month, I had been trusting in God and feeling so much more at peace about everything. Lately, I've been busy rushing around, not asking God for His Mercy for my problems, not trusting in Him...the thought didn't even cross my mind that perhaps I needed to step back and evaluate what my heart was doing. But it has now. :-o)

His Grace is Sufficient.

06 October 2007

Follow the Fish

I've been so moody this week. It's been positively horrid! I'm heartily ashamed, though I don't believe anyone had to deal with it except me...I hope. Yet, in the midst of this extreme immatureness, cool revelations happened in the "what i recently found that's really cool to me" category.



Feeling the vibrations of music in your pillow is absolutely grand. Really and truly.



Quite terribly upset and tired, I crept to my room after work on Wednesday, turned on my cd player to try to finish these pretty cool Benjamin Britten Cello Suites my teacher wanted me to listen to with the volume all the way up (don't worry, I was quite alone in the house, no one was bothered ;-P ) , crawled into my "made-hastily-this-morning-bed" and pulled the covers over my brain and it's case. It's quite interesting how much of a difference there is in whether or not the the covers are over your head...



At first, I couldn't tell whether I was feeling the vibrations of the cello humming it's Oh-So-Cool contemporary melody in my pillow, or if it was just the pounding of my heart in my ears in a duet with my gasping breath (it's a bit stifling after running around to crawl under a blanket and try to breathe...). Trying to find out, I held my breath. But that just made it worse as my head pounded even more with my heart and lungs protesting at this lack of oxygen and then my ragged gasps for another breath to hold again...at last my breathing quieted enough to tell that yes, I was feeling the cello in my pillow! I haven't a clue why, but it intrigued me for quite sometime.



I honestly don't know why I'm typing this all out. I sat down tonight to write some incredulously uninspiring musings I've come across this week, (which I guess this fits) but this is what came to my my mind and fingers.



So please forgive my stupidity this week. Next week will be better...when perhaps I'll be able to think. ;-)

12 September 2007

George

I finally decided it's time to return to a random , unimportant, yet large-chunk-of-life , green, un-used q-tip, giant lollipop post.



So, here it is.



I've decided I MUST tell all you grand and glorious beans out there about George. George came into existence a few months ago, just a few weeks after I started my job at McClure's Orchard. I had decided one Saturday that all those fellow Saturday work dudes had probably come to the point of being ready for some true Leah-ishness to finally be thrown to them. I knew they were starving for some real, solid, true LeahNardo. So, I fed it to them. :-) And they rejected it like a 4 year old rejects peas.



We were all innocently chopping fruit for the fruit salad on that fateful morning, quite silent and meditative, like inward Yoga. I grasped my courage before it completely slipped out of reach and pushed it forward for all to see some of the real Me.



"Don't say that Josh! George is right here and he finds that highly offensive!" (some remark about grapes being an awesome thing or some sort of profoundness that he is always offering to all who wish or don't wish to hear.) My statement was followed by the funniest, blankest, grandest, and strangest look I've ever seen from anyone. "Who?" said He. "Why Josh! Don't be so rude! You're standing right next to him!" Josh gives Robin (the older, more mature, and cooler of all of us) the "Did-she-just-say-what-i-think-she-said-'cause-I-think-she's-insane!" look. Robin looks at me just as oddly while Caitlin flat out says, "Whoa, you really are crazy."

Then all break into "who is George?" "where is he?" "what is he?" and from Caitlin (of course) "is he cute?" (oh boy...) After which I told them all that they could just ask/see/look at him because he's right by Josh holding that pear...

The facts of George:
  • He is 1 year and 3 months older than me
  • He isn't home schooled
  • He had just moved to Texas
  • He has one older sister who is a music major in college named Kate
  • His parents names are Tim and Paula McCoy
  • He plays the guitar quite marvellously
  • He likes snorkeling, water buffalo hunting, and sky diving

And that's about all I could think of on the fly. Since then, to all who don't know about George, Josh just HAS to pipe up,"Oh, yeah, and she has an imaginary friend. A REAL imaginary friend. His name is George. Isn't that weird?" Josh also told me on Saturday that with all that work there at the orchard, from the very beginning he's felt like he's known them forever and was completely comfortable around them...except me. I kinda have a feeling it might be George's fault. :-P

08 September 2007

Can't Take It (with the cool string intro of course!)

Defying emotions and heads...

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Yes I can.(!!)

06 August 2007

A Day In the Life

There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out all fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love.
[1 John 4:18]

This verse was on Amy's facebook the other day and it caught my brain for a few seconds into a whirlwind of thoughts. First I thought about what I usually thought about when I read or hear this verse, "perfect love casts out all fear," Christ's love is perfect, therefore he casts away all fear and it normally stops there (wow, it really shouldn't, should it?) But as I began my usual utterly stupid, random, all that I'm saying is "I love you" in a different way comment, the verse didn't leave the premises of my mind. Then I began thinking of how I strive for perfection, to be Christ-like, and fail, knowing I will fail. Next, of how I have nothing, nothing to fear because Christ has taken care of all my fears and will continue to take all my fears and how they exist no more because His Love covers them. But then my real joy in the verse came into my heart, seriously flooding my mind with radiance and happiness. It's at the very end of the verse, "and the one who fears is not perfected in love,". We have nothing to fear! We can be perfected in love! How grand is that?

12 June 2007

Amia Lael...




...has finally decided to show herself and made her appearance on June 6th at 2:32 a.m. If you want, you can see her page at the hospital.






<------Us (well, this is mom, Ethan, and Mrs. Pier [Brad's mom]) waiting at about 3:00 a.m. on the only thing they had for people to wait on...in a hallway...in the air conditioning...which is FREEZING in 68° weather in the middle of the night...but it was all worth it...just take a look... :)








My gorgeous sister, Emily, and her daughter :)

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<-----A Positively Beaming Uncle :)








"GG" and her granddaughter ;) ------->








I have an absolute SWEET one of Brad and his little girl as well as some from the night she was born and some of my dad holding her when he got home but they're on the other camera so I'll put them on later. Anyway, here are just a few pictures of the cutest thing around right now. ;) We are so thankful that it was a safe delivery without any complications and both Emmi and Amia are healthy! Praise God!




"Behold, children are a gift of the LORD,

The fruit of the womb is a reward.

Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,

So are the children of one's youth.

How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them;

They will not be ashamed

When they speak with their enemies in the gate."

Psalm 127:3-5


23 April 2007

I Rather Dislike Walmart...

Unless It Happens To Be Inhabited By Some Rather Grand People! :oD

Don't you love it when you go to someones blog and they posted this grand post about something that is truly funny or sad or interesting or at least informative? By the time you get to the end, you have made up your mind on the subject and decide, "Yes, I'm glad they brought that up and discussed it." Or, "I'm so glad they told me how that went,/how they are/what's going on." Don't you enjoy going to friend's and family's and, and, hmmm, fiance's (! it's all I could think of :o) !) blogs and reading about their interesting thoughts. And then you think back on it for the days to come about that funny, profound, cute, or sad idea that that post was about. Or at least if it had a point to it.

Yeah, me too.

25 March 2007

Title and Registration

Life.

We get moments of it when we can. We like to wave at those moments as they pass by*. We watch them as they pass and fade out of sight, hopefully watching, waiting, and wishing for the next to come into view. We enjoy those moments and they are the high point in our day. Or maybe month.

Life. :sigh: It's grand.

Have you ever listened to "Perfect Situation" 27 times in a row?
*Sorry. Just had to throw a bit of Jack Sparrow in. ;)

28 January 2007

a real post perhaps?


Ha! by Leah? Indeed not.

However a few non life changing items are:
-Leah is awake {which more than she could have said 3 hrs. ago}
-Leah is trying hard to decide how to write a speech about the significance of the virgin birth and not succeeding...drat. 'Tis a too good (two double 'o's in a row..."There's a double meaning in that...") a subject to not do a good job on.
-Leah is very soonish having to go to bed and is not tired after her 2 hr nap...double drat.
-Leah is very excited to have finished 2nd Chronicles yesterday which she feels to be a great accomplishment!
-Leah is head-achishmenting {but she trying not to whine 'boust it! I think she shall prevail! :oP}
-Leah is deciding this is quite pointless and un-interesting and shan't kill a bit more Time because as we learned in Though the Looking Glass that you can't kill Time or the Queen will have thine head!

I'm thinking some tea, Bible reading, and Jack Johnson are in order for Leah tonight...

Indeed.

(O yes, in the photograph, 'tis she at a football [I sincerely hopest you know what I mean!] game when she should be looking ardently at her Algebra, she is staring quite intently at the grand mad play that 'twas made by the opposing team and probably speaking her mind to her younger sibling telling him what play to make next...drat again.)

23 January 2007

RedBullCarsAreUtterSveetNess



The Poor And Destitute Arugula!!!!
Is There Anything In The World Superior To Thee?
I Shalt See That Thy Name is Proclaimed To All.
May You Live Long As A Denizen Of Greatness (As Phil Once Said, [In .222 Seconds] "TWO Arugulas Are Company.")
Bill Gates Shall Praise Thy Beauty O Arugula.

Wriggle In Thy Joy.
For So Thou Art.

02 January 2007

agherm

Your Bumper Sticker Should Be

What if the hokey pokey really is what it's all about?


Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"So, you're a cannibal."
Think maybe I was getting so tired of Biology I couldn't stand it?
Yup.